Im desperate for another photo shoot. I love being photographed…well anytime im infront of a camera…im escatic…its my favorite place to be, its where I belong.
Sooo…I havent blogged in a while due to my job restricting the tumblr site, and the internet usually being down at my house…not to mention my slow ass computer…
So im off work today, and when walked in the house to my surprise “The Best Man” Was on! Unfortunately I came in on the last hour of the movie. I was upset because I remember liking the movie so much(im a sucker for the 90’s-early 20’s sappy black romance films) but I didnt remember many details of the film. Anyway…the part that stuck with me was when Sanaa Lathan and Taye Diggs were dancing at Morris Chestnut and Monica Calhoun’s(Lance and Mia) wedding, as they are dancing, Taye(Harp) is asking Sanaa(cant remember her characters name) some questions, and she starts planning ahead…looking into the future(not dealing with the “right now” like she should have)…Harp says…”See thats your problem…you dont live in the moment enough”…he then gets on his knees to propose to her..blah blah blah. But the point is,…I felt just like Sanaa at that very moment…she looked at him and said “What” with a confused face…but I know she knew exactly what he meant. Someone very special to me tells me those very words so often, and I get it. I have to stop planning all the time, and just live my life…the people that are supposed to stay in my life will…and thats the bottom line. The things that are supposed to happen to me in my life will inevitably happen, and I am thankful for that. Being a planner and looking into the future can also be a very good quality. But im most thankful for having someone who balances me out…I have to see the “other side of the game” sometimes…
letting go and living in THE moment, in THIS moment, feels amazing…
PS…im back…I need to blog more…I was going through slight withdrawal.
I decided to randomly check my laptop and mysteriously I have internet and my comp is working well :) I still want a mac…
Deer In Headlights…nuff said.
Shout out to my girls…especially my best friend Crystel Corinne…lol
Dreamhard and Mrjjude…TAKE THIS
The older I get, the more I think about my future, a family and kids. However, I cannot imagine having a baby at 11 years old.
Life is better when you are sharing it with people who love your life just as much as you do.
I feel so amazing. I have so many things hanging in the balance as far as my life in concerned right now, but yet I feel like I have so much to be thankful for, and so many wonderful things going for me.
I know what I need to happen in these next few months, im just trying to make it happen. And things are moving along for me :)
Im moving to LA, dont have a place to stay, or a job…but I have passion, drive, and friends and family who support me all the way(thats all I need).
Im good. Im happy. Im blessed.
This is incredibly sad. Watch this clip, this woman is still incredibly sweet, and trying to make the best out of her situation.
Ive never seen anything like this.
-ABF
Im off work today, and ive decided that I will work out, and watch the Spike movies I havent seen in a while! Im watching “Jungle Fever” right now :) When I watch films it takes me to a wonderland….where I wonder…how long will it be until im in one of these films. Something tells me not too long :) I love film, I love acting, I love the best form of mass communication…film and television :) everyone doesnt go to the theatre, everyone doesnt read the paper, everyone doesnt listen to the radio, but just about everyone watches TV, sits in the convenience of their home and watches a movie, or goes to the movie theatre!
-ABF
